I'm going to be a mom...

**This took place back in 2012. This is our story about getting pregnant with our Olivia...

Baby C's antics started to slow down a bit. She never really kicked, but because of her constant hiccups, I always knew she was still with me.

Doctor appointments never slowed down, but that was ok...I needed the constant reassurance to get through the day. 

By the time April came around Don and I started getting more excited about Baby C. We still mourned our other babies, but we allowed ourselves to enjoy getting ready for what we had hoped would be our little miracle. 

We ordered our baby furniture, wall decal and Don and my sisters took me to register. I had to sit in a wheelchair which made me a little sad. Everyone was so excited to register that I would find myself sitting in the middle of the aisle by myself while hearing the beep, beep, beep from the scanner two aisles down. I couldn't blame anyone for their excitement, but I so badly want to walk around myself and scan the items for my baby. Regardless, Don's face shined as he was scanning items we totally didn't need, but that he wanted. His excitement brought me back to the day I told him we were pregnant. It was good to see. He deserved this moment. 

I was home by myself the day the baby furniture came. This was a big day for me. It felt official. I picked this furniture out after researching hundreds of websites and reviews for the best of the best. I picked this out for my very own child. The delivery guys were carrying in big boxes of furniture while I sat on my front porch and watched...and cried. They gave me a few awkward smiles and glares, but little did they know how long I had waited for this moment. Getting the furniture was a huge milestone for us. 

After the furniture arrived Don put the wall decal up in the nursery. It's of a cherry blossom tree with birds. My sister found it and as soon as I saw it I fell in love. 

The decal came with 6 birds, Don asked what I thought about only putting up 3. At first I didn't agree, but then he said it would mean a lot to him if we only put up 3. Then I got it...3 birds. Our 3 babies. It was the most perfect idea. They should be included- I know that in some way, those 3 little lives will always look after Baby C and they will most certainly, always be in our hearts. 

The following month (May) was our baby shower. Our family threw the most beautiful shower to celebrate Baby C. I asked my sisters to throw the shower earlier than usual because I had a feeling that no matter what, this baby would come on her own terms. 

The shower was perfect. It felt good to celebrate with our friends and family who had supported and cheered for us every step of the way. My husband made a beautiful speech which brought everyone to tears. All in all, it was a great day. Perfect. 

After setting up the nursery and putting away all of the gifts, I stood in the middle of the room thinking, "Soon enough. Almost there. I'm going to be a Mom."